the same thing just a different day

so lately ive realized i dont act my age. im 19 yearsd old and i wanna be 25. like really.! whats going on? i need to just live up my young years luike their my last because they are. ive always wanted to grow up fast and i dont understand why. sometimes i just wanna be able to go to the club and enjoy myself. and let loose. date boys and all the fun stuff that goes along with clubbing. however i like to act like an old woman worried about men that are in their late 20's . ugh i hate men i really do and because i wont date a woman i pretty much out of luck i just need to focus on myself and my schoolso everything will be good. :)